hardcore pawnography

as every third grader knows, light is both a particle and a wave.  duh!   claus jonsson did the double slit experiment with electrons in 1961, and then they did it one electron at a time in milan in 1974 or so.  the double slit experiment is when they shoot light through a cardboard screen with two holes in it.  it shows interference by the light patterns on the wall, like waves breaking in an ocean, but only if you don’t try to observe it.  when you try to observe it, it forces the electron to choose a hole.   you can’t observe something without changing/altering/affecting it somehow.

this leads into schrodinger’s cat.  there is a cat in a box with a bottle of poison.  he might have tipped the poison and died, he might not have.  is the cat alive or dead?  you don’t really know until you open the box to look.  before you open the box, the cat is both alive and dead.  opening the box forces one conclusion or the other. 

this leads into the crazy ideas of different branches of reality. every choice we make leads us on a path, but somewhere, in an alternate reality, we made the other choice and went down another path. 

this leads us to openings.  do i take the horse with the bishop or not?  every opening, although somewhat set in certain moves, has a few points where you can choose between two or three options.  each opening has different branches, wich lead to different outcomes, different realities.   in some alternate universe, i have made the right moves and i am a kick ass chess player.   sadly, it’s not this universe. 

BUT!…..who is to say it isn’t?  ok, it’s not now, but if i were to somehow make the right choices, perhaps i could find myself with two bishops attacking a king in the corner with a fucked up castle, and maybe my horse putting pressure on him as well.  is it possible to make this reality that i am in right now the good one, the reality where i actually know what i’m doing?

is it possible to somehow change whatever path i’m on, possibly through study, dilligent practice,  or selling my soul to the hoary host of the netherworld, to make the right decisions, choose the correct path, and alter my future?  (according to noted professor robert plant, … there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run, there is still time to change the road you’re on.)  what pawn move within the first 5 moves did i make caused me to end up in this fucked up position? 

every move i make is a decision that alters the outcome of the game.  how do i learn to make the right decisions?  do i even have a choice in the overall matter?   i am currently in the running to become the king grand puba master of losing a won game.  even if i make the right moves early on, i manage to lose the game in the end.  as if i am fighting against god himself, and of course, being omnipotent, god has the edge, he aint gonna lose.   

i have to keep fighting, keep trying to control my destiny and make the right choices, be vigilant until my opponent tips his king.  what else can i do?  i have to keep playing until the day where i make the right moves, make the right decisions that put me on the path, the correct branch of all the possible realities, the branch where i actually win the damn game, which the majority of people take as a fun pastime and no more. 

until that day, i will have to live with someone repeatedly opening my box to find me losing.  damn him….

in other news…the giro d’italia has begun.  i am hoping my man cunego kicks ass this year.  perhaps hincapie might do well?  i just wish they showed it every day on tv, not just on sundays with a recap.  just cause lance armstrong isn’t riding anymore doesn’t mean there is no cycling….crazy americans…